Character Pattern

Once one recognizes a pattern then some things have to be considered.

1. Is this pattern good?

2. Is ANY pattern good?

I am not entirely sure what the hell I am trying to say. But there is something cool about noticing patterns.

I mean, If you can see the patterns in people's behavior then they can be manipulated.
If you don't want to be manipulated then you should stay away from repeating patterns in your behavior...
Sometimes it might even be cool to manipulate people to manipulate you.
This might be useful when dealing with character flaws that you may be unaware of.
Identifying the pattern then manipulating it to identify another pattern.

patterns can feel good. I like music.

My heartbeat is pretty freakin cool!

quilts......



 

Chasing Maybe....

                                                         
What is the deal with women? Hahahahaha, Ok sorry guys! I know we all have asked that....and the gals have also. Women actually will say "Yeah, We are all crazy" ......I mean, Why is that ok? ......I have always said....(Well not always ....but I said it a lot since I realized it) ...that if I say to a woman that all women are crazy and she agrees... then I should walk away. .........Well, I would be walking away from almost every woman..  Oh!..and I don't mean for this to sound like a bitchfest on women. I am sure guys are crazy......but I find myself not getting into intimate relationships with guys to know. I do in fact love Vag. .....Also, at this point I would like to add that ....NO!!  no woman has recently broke my heart ....No woman has recently wronged me. This is coming from a bunch of conversations and experiences throughout my whole life...And if you do think that this blog is about you.....your ARE so vain!...... The point is,  I talk to women, they say whats on their mind, I gotta hear dating stories and whatnot...........I got a topic to write about.

So, lets start with expectation.

                                                        

How do we ever know what to expect until we actually experience the future? I tend to agree with the logic of letting the winds take you where they may, and accepting, Not expecting what may be coming. I think a lot of women....(ok lets just assume that when I say women I actually mean people)..have this mold of what could be in their heads...And when they cant find the shape to fit the mold they become distraught. Well, That mold is very unique. Its incredibly hard to fit THAT mold. I say throw away the mold. Don't expect anything.  You will never find it. Instead, try to subscribe to the idea of letting go. Let go of all of what you think you know and just let it be. accept the things that are good and fun into your life. I talked to a girl recently and she was explaining to me how she was dating this guy...blah blah blah....and towards the end of the conversation she said..." I am a looking for a relationship, I am not looking for fun" ...I asked her to just listen to what she just said...she said she did....But she missed the point....Go figure. I mean, life is too short to be SO selective. I mean standards are one thing ....(I hope I get to the point)..anyways , I am also not saying to settle for less!! I am just saying.....let go. Let go of any hurtful memories or any insecure thoughts...Let love in...I think this gets to my next point. Not that I think I made my last point....But I came close.....My next point is that maybe IF one learns to let go they wont be so intrigued with.......


The Chase!
                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

OK, so it seems like a women isn't happy with a man unless there is some sort of chase involved. I am guessing because there is some very insecure feeling...and that when a guy chases them they feel like ...They matter!.... ain't that a shame?, I blame society, their parents, and the mean'ness of the evil teenage kids for this.. when they were in their 20's ........but, in the 30's and beyond!?!....We need to start looking WITHIN for a scapegoat... finding those causes and accepting them and letting go of them. ...Again, let it go. ....you have these situations where one person seems to like the other person more than the other person likes them...  Why?  let's face it. If a guy/girl chases you and you don't like them....you will cut if off and never talk to them again.....BUT if someone chases you and you let it linger and linger and linger..... maybe you kinda maybe might see something cool in that person.....but, what mold is it that you are trying to fill? Why do you have to let it linger? (I hate that that is a Cranberries song)  We need to look within..understand that nothing lasts forever, learn to accept change and love the uncertainty in life...and maybe if one can learn to do that ...then the things we love to chase us will be the things we love to love.

But, I dont know.....Maybe we all are just chasing Maybe........

What is relation?

I feel I am  a fairly open ...and very honest person. I feel I connect well with others. I gravitate to the interesting characters in life. I am probably not the most traveled person, but I get around.  I feel I am compassionate towards others and do what I can to help anyone that is in my life that may need help. I cant prove that God exists yet I cannot disprove it either. I am comfortable with saying....I don't know. I hope there is! But I also hope for a lot of things that aren't readily available. People are fallible, and I am content with saying I am flawed. I don't exactly know what the cause of my flaw is or more importantly WHAT my flaw is. I DO know that there is this feeling that is deep beneath the surface that stabs at me from time to time that assures me to the fact that Vince is flawed. I love life, Life is so very beautiful and any cliche that you can drop into this text that applies...its all that!! I realize that! I own that! I love that! ........................................................I feel alone.

I rarely call my family....well, I virtually NEVER call my family. And by family I mean the one I was born into. Not the one I created. I feel I was too responsible to do such a thing. I felt that one cannot bring a child into this world without knowing oneself fully. I feel one cannot commit them self to someone without being completely at one with their own consciousnesses....   Its an exercise in futility. But I have tried! I am comfortable with opening myself to a stranger yet I cannot call my grandmother and tell her how deeply I feel for her. I cannot feel comfortable with telling my sister that I love her. I cant talk to my mother and show any amount of the compassion, the same compassion I am so proud to say I can give. I am my father's only son and I am not much closer to him than I am a casual friend.

Is relation relative? and why do I not relate to my relatives?